Dave is an answer to many prayers and I pray many more.
In the beginning, I expected to hang out with Dave quite a bit. He spoke English and he is my age. He helped me negotiate higher wages and lobbied for the higher wages on my behalf. In the last few weeks, however, he was acting kind of awkward. I found out through Choi that he thought I had rejected his friendship because the two times he invited me somewhere, I had already made other plans. The Tuesday I was back from Jeju, I did my best to patch things up by asking him when we were going to hang out. We tentatively made plans for Saturday and he told me he’d text me when he was free during weekdays and invite me over to play badminton. Wednesday he invited me over to play “table soccer” (= foosball) and I helped him and his colleague assemble it instead, much to his surprise. But he still bounced between being great and being awkward- he gave me directions via text and phone to get home late Wednesday night, I stopped by his office Friday when the Seoul School for the Deaf visited, he made me coffee and we finalized plans for Saturday, he waited for me to eat dinner Friday when I came late and everyone had left. I think it was that friendship was defined on my terms? Maybe the fact that he broke up and then made up with his girlfriend was a factor? In any case, even Choi felt he was awkward.
Saturday night it ended up just being Stan, his Korean- American best friend, Dave, and me. Stan is a typical American fraternity kid and he’s done lots of things Jesus doesn’t approve of. So has Dave. (So have I). Stan made me feel a little uncomfortable though, because in that way he was more “American” than I but he assumed otherwise. After dinner, we were supposed to go out clubbing with a bunch of Dave’s friends, but Dave had food poisoning. He was sick. At first he didn’t admit it, but then he finally told us he needed to go home. I was dismayed that he didn’t just cancel his plans with me in the first place. He wanted me to go out with Stan and meet up with Stan’s American friends who were celebrating the 4th by drinking a lot, but I felt there was too much potential awkwardness, so I just went home with him. And I’m so glad I did. During the bus ride, I got to share my parents’ testimonies and my family and homeschooling experience. He was struck by it all, especially by my parents’ openness about their pre-Christ life and their dedication to their children in homeschooling them.
To make up for Saturday, we went out for Mexican food on Wednesday night. I was a little nervous about it because Stan told me Dave thinks I’m beautiful and I was afraid he might have broken up with his girlfriend because of me (I didn’t know they were back together yet). God is good. Dave invited his brother who has just graduated from Rutgers to come with us. That in itself relieved my fear a bit. But moreover, we had so much fun. Alex and Dave are a blast. Both are really great guys and I’m genuinely glad to have Dave as a friend. He is very humble and continually turns the conversation away from himself to praise others like his brother. We started talking about Koreans and how obsessed they are with beauty and how they dress and look. Alex and Dave are disgusted with it and with Korean materialism and superficiality in general (sidenote- the Korean Nazarene students were all surprised that I am thin since I’m American. I told Dave that and he said when he heard there was an American intern he assumed I was a fat, 40 year old. That’s our American rep, guys). In so many words (that made it not awkward) Dave told me that I am beautiful, and not just because I am American, but he knows I feel strange to always be in the spotlight and just appreciated for my physical qualities, he respects me for it and he tries his best to avoid putting me in those situations. I am grateful for that. He’s really a gentleman; that’s just one example.
But this is where it gets awesome. After dinner (and he did a good job of finding a relatively authentic Mexican place if you don’t include the ketchup and onions they called salsa) he received a call from a friend and told us he had to leave to go meet up with this friend. His brother and I were a little put off and then we found out that it is a friend who recently has gone through a messy break up and who needs comfort and friendship, so he was really being a good friend. We asked Dave if his friend didn’t mind hanging out with all of us and Dave readily acquiesced- he just didn’t want to force us to hang out with a friend who doesn’t speak English. We met up with Dave’s friend and then went to a coffee shop to meet up with another friend. From there we were going to go to a bar, but those two friends decided to hang out together instead, so it was just Dave, Alex and I again. The three of us went to the bar anyway (and preceded to only speak English and pretend to be ignorant Americans who only order alcohol, no food= taboo, in Korea. They were so surprised they gave us two fried eggs for free. It was quite amusing). There, conversation turned to dying and subsequently, God. It turns out, Dave is afraid of dying to the point of insomnia. He used to believe in God and Christian beliefs, but then one day he decided not to since he couldn’t really prove God existed- it seemed more just a psychological, feel-good trick. Although he enjoys the lack of restrictions on his life, he has been afraid of dying ever since and lacks peace and joy. I shared my whole testimony with him about struggling with that very idea that God is just something people made up to feel good. I told him about how I came to the conclusion that all the “coincidences” in my life and in the world can either be explained as coincidence or as God, but both take faith. I told him how I wanted to believe in Jesus because I had so much more peace and joy when I did, so finally I just decided to believe in Him and indeed, my life was (and is) so much more peaceful, joyful, purposeful, and fulfilling. And if nothing else, in the end, if my belief in Jesus is in error, I’ve lost nothing by it (and I’ve gained a lot), but if I don’t believe in God, it might have dire consequences. Alex, very high on Dave’s respect list, who graduated with a degree in biomedical engineering, chimed in saying that all of his science professors believe in a higher being or in God to some extent because science simply cannot explain everything and thus Alex believes in a higher being and sees why I would. It was such a good conversation. Dave ended by saying that he really wants to believe in God again and he hopes I can convince him to. Dave, if only you knew how much I pray for that every day.
Thursday night the English Club went out for dinner. Dave again told me that he really wants me to convince him to believe in God. Amen.
God is so good.